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Is it because we are transitioning out of summer and into fall?
Is it because I have recently started to up my freelancing game?
Or is it because my littlest is almost out of diapers?
This is my alien feeling. It's a little spacey. Almost like my body is going through motions, but I am not really here... not all the way here anyways.
I've felt it often.
I'm trying to snap out of it, but I don't think I'm ready to quite yet. This feeling... is a little comforting. I've hoped for and asked the universe for change, positive change, a lot over the past few years. Change always comes with transition.
It's times like these, I find myself listening to my Johnny Cash Radio station (on Pandora). There are some souls that just fascinate me, and the story of Johnny Cash, his music and his voice are all things that speak deeply and intimately to me.
I hear the train a comin' it's rollin 'round the bend
And I ain't seen the sunshine since I don't know when
I'm stuck in Folsom Prison, and time keeps draggin' on
But that train keeps a movin' on down to-San-An-Tone
While I'm grateful and absolutely happy with a lot of my life, there are certain aspects to it that are in desperate need for improvement. While I've never actually been stuck in any kind of physical prison, I listen to Folsom Prison Blues and apply it to the financial prison we've found ourselves in. Like Johnny, I know what I did to get myself here. And, like Johnny, it does feel good to sing the blues about it every once in a while. And maybe we haven't 'seen the sunshine since I don't know when', but it is there.
I have faith and I'm thankful at this moment for this feeling of transition.
<3, Tabi :D